Is there a chance my daughter will be taken from me?
I'm a 24 year old single dad, I had my daughter when I was 16 and won full custody at 19. Two months ago I was put on medication for paranoid schizophrenia, I wasn't having major fits but it got pretty bad a few times before the medicine.
I'm so incredibly afraid of losing my daughter. I'm very steady financially and with my job, but besides a female friend, I have no help with raising my girl. I'm clean, rarely drink, she's happy with me, and I love her more than anything. But I'm losing my mind and she's starting to notice. She's 8 and she's a bright kid, she's quick to tell me when I'm acting different or overreacting. She shouldn't have this pressure I know. Her mother is in and out of prison, useless, no job, no money, dirtbag boyfriend.
I've sat up hours at night with my gun in the living room just staring down the front door thinking someone is going to burst through and take her away from me. I can't have that, I've worked so hard, she wants to be here with me. I know I'm hearing people whisper behind my back that I'm not fit to have her and I lash out, but sometimes it's just my brain making things up. But I know they all think it. I've lost 34 pounds since being diagnosed, and I wasn't overweight, and I barely sleep. I do everything I can to hide my paranoia from her but I think I'm fucking up and everything is going to fail. I feel like someone is coming to hurt me or my girl and I can't sleep. I know something's going to happen that I need to stop but I don't know what.
There's a high chance | 10 | |
There's a medium chance | 12 | |
There's a low chance | 15 |