Is this a mental illness if so what.

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Im 27 year old male,and i been dealing with a lot of problems in my life with family and friends and everything even best friends and best family member's and due to all this nagetivity in my life for over 10 years i just developed social anxiety ,I don't talk to no one at all i keep to my self 100%,even if someone try to be nice to me are try to help me i just reject them and leave them.

now,why i do this is because i want nothing to do with people either good are bad and i want nothing from them in order them not to hurt me.

and i think people want are trying to hurt me by trying to figure me out and use what they know to blackmale me and control me.

the only reason why i think and feel this way cause this is what my family and friends did to me for years.

just use me and i try to show them love but they turn it back on me and now i cant stop thinking this way towards others

and its hard to move on cause the people that did me wrong i was close to in the beginning.

this been going on sence i was 15yr.

and women done the worst to me from my friend to my girl friend to my sister now i cant even talk to women even if they like me.women done the worst thing in my life.

so i think if i do nothing to people and they do nothing to me then that's the best way we both dont get hurt.

i feel hopeless and dead inside like i dont belong here i'm a mistake my heart is to kind and good to belong in such a evil world with evil and selfish people. and sometimes i feel just do it.

i find it so hard to help my self im just lazy in bed all day and night.

i was diagnosis with schizophrenia and social phobia and also schizoaffective disorder.

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    So if you've been diagnosed, what treatment were you given? If it's medication which isn't helping, why not go back to whoever diagnosed you?

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    I am sketchy about trusting anyone too because you can never be certain of anyones intentions, and even when they had good intentions things can still go wrong.
    It is good to interact with others anyways though, because long term isolation isn't really helpful. I interact with people all the time but I realize I can never know for sure what someone will do. Its pointless to worry about things that either will or wont happen.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Its pointless to worry about things that either will or wont happen.

      i worry only to protect my self. i worry so i dont have to get hurt.like guys only be nice to girls cause they want something same could be with girls,and like u said you dont know what there intentions are that's why i watch wat i say to people i do isolate my self but only like my emotions and my thoughs and stuff but only to others.cause if i let people know what makes me tic they well use that to me.so i try to show no emotion's and thoughs are anything cause if i do that's when they all start to try to control me this been happening all my life with my family and now strangers.

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  • noid
    8 years ago

    Welcone back to IIN. Haven't seen your posts in awhile.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      i dont remember your name nor have i seen you posted on any of my post at all. i think u got me confuse with someone else.

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