Is this desire for my dad unusual?
So for quite a while I've struggled with these feeling of attraction to my dad (and no, not a step-day, my real dad). When I was younger I use to pretend to have a tummy ache so he would come rub my tummy to make it "feel all better". Unfortunately that stopped a couple years ago. And these feelings have grown even more intense as I've become more sexual. I've had a couple of boyfriends I've had sex with, but more often than not the only thing that can get me to cum, either with a boy or by myself, is ... the thought of being with my dad.
My mother is a nurse and started working evenings about a year ago. So most nights now it's just my dad and I alone in the house at night. When he comes home from work he's typically pretty tired and so usually just plops down in his recliner after dinner to watch TV for a couple hours. There's a couch next to the recliner which I've routinely laid on while watching TV for as long as I can remember. A few months ago I started a regular routine most nights of taking a shower after dinner and changing into my PJ shorts and a tank top, with no bra or panties, and lying on the couch while my dad watches TV. This is something I NEVER do when my mother's home, as she would often yell at me in the past if I didn't have a bra or panties on. Since I've been doing this my dad has not said one word about it. (Surely he's noticed the change right?).
When I take my shower after dinner I also now leave the door unlocked, and usually a little ajar. Again, something I never do when my mom's home.
Sometimes I pretend to be watching the TV / movie too , or reading, or even sleeping . I purposely squirm a bit ... in an effort to get him look over at me ... and I try to sneak a peek to see if I can tell if he has even the slightest erection or not. Usually it looks like he doesn't, but I swear a few times it looks like he may have had one. Many times I get especially horny and wet when a particularly sexy part of the movie of TV show comes on ... and I squirm and wiggly even more ... all the while fantasizing that maybe now, this time, he'll pick up on my flirtation and we'll both give in to it.
And so it goes on .. night after night ... but so far nothing has come of it, and my frustration continues to grow.
So there it is. It feels sooo freeing to finally be able to share that with SOMEBODY! My feelings and frustrations have been so bottled up for so long. My questions to you all now are .... is this what many other girls experience? Am I really abnormal? Is this something I should ever confide in my dad about? Would it be horribly wrong if we did ever act on it??? Would that make either of us a bad person? Do other girls who experience these feelings ever act on it, and if so, how does it turn out for them?? Should I be more aggressive in my flirtation / seduction? If so, how??? Or what are some other ways you girls have tried or had luck with?? IIN?