Is this in any way normal?

MAJOR disclaimer: I am NOT a pedophile! All the things I’m talking about I thought from ages 11-14, the actress being 13 when this movie was made. Read the rest of the post to know wtf I’m talking about.

So I first saw the movie Jurassic Park when I was 11 years old in the year 2010. I had seen clips of it on YouTube but one that really caught my eye was one with a girl holding a flashlight in a car. I thought she was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen, and made me want to watch it more. So yeah, it was basically my first celebrity crush, and the character was Lex Murphy and the actress was Ariana Richards.

Now fast forward three years and I get the book after finding out the movie was going to be re-released in 3D. I had known there were a few differences going in, one being that Lex was much younger in the book and also really annoying. But this is where it gets into really weird territory.

So, I’ve always had a fetish for unconsciousness and cpr, especially drowning related ones, and there’s actually a part in the book where Lex was saved from drowning. I remember thinking “man, I wish this was in the movie!”

I’m sorry if this came off as really creepy (especially sorry to Ariana Richards if she ever sees this) but I never really had anywhere where I could talk about this. Obviously I’m not into the character anymore, but basically what I’m asking is: is it normal to wish something was in a movie just because you have a fetish for it?