Is this karma?
I come from an ambivalent home. Actually we belong to the working class, but my father is very wealthy and we live in a good neighbourhood. However, he is also a huge asshole, alcoholic and violent.
I always thought it was normal to beat your wife. My mother never complained. However, as time went by, I noticed more and more that she suffered from it and didn't feel well. I was fed up with the days when he would drunkenly beat her and forbid her to speak and accuse her of things she had nothing to do with. I was tired of my mother suffering and me having to stand by and do nothing. One evening he wanted to hit her again for something trivial, so I raised my hand and beat him up. I was in my sixth form exams at the time and in one of the local sports clubs. I was in top form, could have easily competed as an intermediate in weightlifting at my age and above. Because I hurt him and undermined his authority and superiority, he then threw me out the door. I still had the money, so I kept going out for drinks and fooling around. And when I was looking for something to do, I looked for a fight. There were enough opportunities for that in my area. But of course, at some point I ran out of money. Because I had never worked for long, I was not used to anything. Due to the alcohol and the lack of a constant training stimulus, I lost muscle and gained fat. I suffer from shortness of breath due to Corona and high blood pressure due to my visceral fat. I hardly have any friends any more. Most of those who surrounded me were sodswho enjoyed life at my expense. I shrink and have accidents all the time.
Is all this karma?