Is this mental state normal?
I'm kind of worried about it tbh. I get really bad mood swings, and I can't control them or how I behave while I'm experiencing them (I break stuff, cry, self-harm, act hyper, ect.) but they're usually over quite quickly (a couple of hours). I also hate people I usually love? Like, I'll sometimes be with any of my close friends or family and I'll suddenly feel like I hate them and I get disgusted whenever I look at them and I just need them away from me (but I really don't want them to leave. Makes sense, right? I'm quite afraid of being alone). Again, it doesn't last long but I feel so guilty about it? I get myself into trouble by acting on my impulses and disregarding, or not even remembering, the consequences. I also change a lot - like, who I am seems to change - so frequently that I don't really know who or what I am.
Thanks!