It's normal to never perfect again

Finding perfection I'll never have to perfect it, I would've been the perfect man I wanted. That is: mindful, action-oriented not results-oriented, and present (living in the present moment). AMORC, magick, black mirror scrying, Luciferianism, Platonism, and GermanenOrden all clumped together is my perfect spiritual being, plus the following philosophies: philosophy of happiness, philosophy of pain, philosophy of war, skepticism, ultrapessimism, Pyrrhonism, Platonism, empiricism, whimsy and wonder, form and function, fun and games, song and dance, time and effort, smiles and sunshine, and sweat, blood & tears. That's most of my philosophies, and my ideologies to name a few of the few of them are: extreme Adelaidism, anti-dismonetaryism, and ultrakingism. Ultraextremism yes, not the regular extremism, being a man of my word, and the following 12 morals: humility, self-reliance, trust no one, don't spend time with or interact with other people, stay out of the pubs, don't beg for any items in public, be very busy & don't be lazy, be gingerly, rest, don't strive with a drunk person, & be reasonably clean & be healthy and do alternative medicine (all 3 simultaneously), and my version of utilitarianism: the greatest happiness for the greatest number of people including myself, not being selfish, and cause no pain or harm to others. Plus I'm still a perfectionist because it doesn't need perfecting, as follows: great achievements in art and science have value beyond any of the effects they have on the lives of human beings, and by being mindful, focusing on the action and not the results, and being in the present I can make this perfectionism perfect (please insert your greatness here). So the thing is I'm no longer searching for an identity, I've got one already, none of my beliefs will ever be revised again as far as I can help it. Furthermore I'm also an axiological, gnostic, pragmatic, relative, and theoretical atheist, so I'm 5 kinds of atheist, I'm also one of each of the following types of irreligions: anticlerical, antitheist, and nontheist. I believe the Supreme Being's perfectly evil and God didn't originate the world nor governs the world, I simply relax with the ambiguity and uncertainty of the present moment without reaching for anything to protect myself, there's no "babysitter" you can count on.