Jealous and upset bf’s friend hooked up
so for about a year now i have had feelings for my boyfriend friend. i have the feeling he reciprocates those feelings based on the times we have spent together and the signs. i won’t get into it all now, but you know when the energy and connection is there..
anyways, this friend doesn’t really hookup with people. he’s 25 and never has had a girlfriend. he hangs out with me and my boyfriend every weekend pretty much the whole time. anyways, tonight my bf called me and told me the friend came over for 30 minutes after going to a bar and hooking up with someone there. apparently he fingered her in his car and she didnt want to have sex so he left, went to my bf’s house told him, and then went home. very unlike him my boyfriend was even surprised. when he told me what happened i was instantly crushed. my heart sank. i know i have no right to bf upset bc i myself have a bf. my bf has treated me very badly in the past, cheated multiple times and is just not good. none of my fam or friends like him. but i feel like this is the only way i can still see his friend. i’m so hurt and i don’t know what to do. am i justified?