Me and my best friend ended up having gay sex

Ok firstly im a boy, and my best friend is also a boy. We have been friends for over 8 years. I am not openly gay i have told around 10 of my closest friends i'm gay. All of them are girls except him. He was shocked that was gay but it never really changed our friendship. Sometimes he takes the mick outta me but were only havin a bit of banter. Anways so i asked him if he wanted to come rund to my house to play xbox. He ob said yes, if he had no i would of been wtf. Haha. So he came round he played mesed round talked about rubbish. It was getting kidda late. Lyk around 10ish. It was gettin dark so i said if you want you can sleep here. So he called his mum to see if his was ok, and she said yer thats fine along as he was back by lunch cus they where going out. So we carried on playin xbox and my mum was going to town with sum friends. And my brother was in bed. We have 5 bedrooms so we don't have to share rooms. Thankfully! Anways we where getting kidda bored so we started talkin about me. Omg, i knew where this was going to lead. Then he got onto the subjevt. Have i ever done anything with a lad. It was so awkward!!! So i was lyk yes. Anyway chat conuited and i didn't know how tto change the subjeact without it being noceable iv changed it. Anyways after lyk a horrid hour. It jus changed thankgod. So we then started playin truth or dare. Also i done eve know what im aloud to say cus i dnt wnt to say anything to rude and then my question gets banned. So we started pkayin truth or daer the usally. Then he sed i dare you to get into ur boxers, so i did but i was wearing briefs hehe. So i sed the same to him. Then he went truth or dare i ob said dare then he went i dare you to get into my bed and then he got ontop of me ans started kissing. He so hot he so popular at skwl. He lyk one of these justin bieber wanabees. But hes always working ot. Ppl always ask him why does he hang around with me. Im not gly but uno. Anyway we started kissin and then i ob got hard so i lifted my hips up and slowy humped him forwrd. He then got hard and pushed bk onto me so i was lyin flat on my bk. I didn't want to c** yet. So i stoped i knew this was ad and wasn't wir right. Oh i forogt to tell we had also been drinki my mums drinks lol. And so i pushed himoff and went bk to my own bed. No one sed anything for about ten minutes. Then i jumped bk up and went to kidd him again. He then sed what does gay sex feel lyk so i sed do u want me to show you? He sed ob sed hes. So i rubbed sum of om perfum free cream on him. ( i have exzma) well on hiss arse. He was so tight and i didn't want to hurt him. So i slowly entered slowly. I was clear he had nothin had been up there. Except poo. So it was tight. I heard him moan lyk a wimp so i stped bu he sed carry on. So i did and then opened him up and went at it. Until i ca** inside him. Then i su**** him off so he ca**. The nxt monrni we realised had happnened en we woke up naked and stuff on the bed. His! He didn't say nothin he didnt evn look at me he got changed and went. I cryed cus i i knew it was my fault. I shudnt of .... Him andcus hes not gay. Hes probs bi but i dnt wnt to be gay jus us ofw what i have done. Then yesterday, he called me and we tlked and then he came over. And we tlked about what had happned. And then he sed he was bi. But no one knoes. He had told me h had alwyas lyk me. Evn before i had told him i wa gay. But for sum reason i can't help but fell like its not real. Like im the one whos made him bi? If uno what i mean. Cus i dnt belive he has always een bi. I think its my faluth and now i hate myself for it. So the question is. Is it my falut? And what shud i do? Omg its nos not one of these lover tifs. I dnt want to throw ourfreinds away. But yet he lyks mand i reeally lyk him. But i can't tell him that. Urgh! Anyways thanks for readin pls help me lol. And im sorry about then spellin i started to cry wen half way thoo. Pls help me thankyou for help.