Millennial in constant existential crisis - pls help me feel less alone?

I am a millennial frightened of the future.

My gen X friends and boomer family keep talking about buying more properties (property no. #3), while it's as much as I can do to pay them my rent money and I'm stuck wondering 'How is this fair?' and 'Why do I even bother?' and I just hope more and more that some tragic fatal accident will take my life before I'm 60 and feel like ending it, because clearly I neither have a house nor a marriage partner nor kids nor any kind of sex life, which they all had when they were my age, and I barely even have a stable employment contract and even then my employers treat me like sh*t, and I've got a prestigious degree I wasted my youth to study for while they just partied through theirs and sailed along fine. What will be left for me if I even manage to retire before I die? And even if I do scrimp and save to buy the most modest of properties, what sort of investment will it be except a means of paying my own nursing home fees, if I live that long? Let's hope I don't, so that at least some other poor bugger can benefit from it instead of those greedy corporate b*stards.

I hate that I envy them. These people from older generations are people I care about and I want them to be happy and well, but how can I quash the sinking feeling in my stomach when they blithely talk about contributing to one of the very reasons why there's no future for me, or any family my pathetic, shrivelled ovaries might still be able to provide by the time the miracle finally happens, if it ever does?

I don't want to die, but I think on balance that it would be better if I were dead. It would make better sense of everything if I didn't exist. Like a shot at the doctor's that you're phobically scared of taking, but know is for the best.

Does anyone else feel this way about their future?