Mixed feelings about leaving church
I have gone to church for ten years but now I am burned out on it and I don't want to go anymore. At the time, I was looking for something to give meaning to my life and to be honest, this just doesn't do it for me. I have never really believed in "god" the way that Christians do, but I do believe that there is a definite meaning to life. I would consider myself to be a deist. The problem is that I am involved in the band and I really like playing music with the people I have gotten to know there over the past decade, but on the other hand I feel like I am living a lie and going through the motions of doing something that I don't really believe in.
Is it normal ?