My period turns me into a monster

Hello there!

I hope you are well?

I have come to is it normal to discuss my severe mood swings or changes to my mood itself, before or during my period. I feel like over time it has gotten a lot worse, and has impacted my close relationships with people, I always tell myself before I get my period ‘this period will be different or ‘I will just distance myself for a couple of days. I become extremely hostile without even realising it but then later, I think to myself ‘wow that thing that got me angry was so minor and I could have definitely handled things differently, without hurting those that are close to me. I think the best way I can describe the way I feel during those moments, is that my reaction or anything I do is firmly manipulated by my emotions rather myself manipulating my own emotions. I mentally cannot help the way I react towards things; it might sound overdramatic but I honestly feel like I go insane during these moments, I could be crying, overthinking, anxious, insecure, apathetic, sensitive, depressed, angry to happy in a space of 5 minutes, it is mentally and physically exhausting. I have tried explaining this to people over and over again, I feel like a lot of people including doctors have downplayed whatever the hell goes on with me. I feel bad for the people who are the closest to me, as I normally have these episodes predominantly with them. I think the worst thing I have said to someone was that I wanted nothing to do with them, and then proceeded to block their phone number, and then spoke to them the day right after. I personally feel like none of this is normal and that it is very extreme.

I was wondering if there are other individuals who share similar experiences? Please do not hesitate to share experiences, I want to know that I am not alone and please provide me with some advice!

Thank you so much!