Nobody cares about me
What a cosmic joke, there's a poison in thinking, people are hostile and from the beginning of time all through history I know what 99% of us all care about: sleeping, nobody gives a shit about you, especially me, everyone thinks I'm the wrong partner to my girl, women don't give a shit about me, they don't take me as an example of the right man you want to marry. Ideally you would marry a no-nonsense man who loves money, nobody gives a flying fuck about what's good, about what's the best, if I was that kind of perfectionist I would've had a million dollars.
Nobody is letting me in on a conversation, of course charitable, good people will care, nobody gives a shit about good except for them. Charitable people care to support posh people, poor people, rich people, of course they care, they're the only ones who make a song and dance about people like me who are too important. They care about everyone, but some of them are pseudo-good and cherry pick the people they care about. The truth is I'm an example of a good man with good ideas and people should marry me, based on my prestige of tradition, getting some sleep, and some Franciscan philosophy and the freedom to do what I want, it's tempting to think the truth always works and therefore be a pragmatist, but it's not true, the truth, my beliefs don't work, but it's still reality, nothing ever works, nobody gives a shit, they would merely agree that none of it works and will wonder why their plans always fail, of course it's not going to work, the truth doesn't do anything, it doesn't care except for all our beliefs, the believer is the only one who does care, they repeat themselves, somewhat forcing me to accept it and say "yes, it's true", nobody says that with your beliefs, that's why people talk out their ass. It all of course points to me, things you think like the devil are what you think whether people like it or not, it's naughty to think about a demon, some people think demons are good. That's how nobody cares about anything except what goes on in their heads, they only if anything care about sport, popular music, TV, easy things like that, the truth is I'm a difficult person, it's difficult to stop being difficult, and nobody cares about difficult people.