Not being worthy of my friends motivates me to lose weight
Of course my friends would never say that to me but I feel like I'm unworthy of being their friend. They are just so much prettier than me and I feel like I embarrass them by going out with them because other people would ask themselves why they're friends with someone like me.
I know it's stupid and I'd never think someone is unworthy of my friendship because they weight a few pounds more but I just can't stop thinking like that.
Even in the past I've never lost weight for myself but always for someone else(yes I have lost weight in the past but I stopped and went back to my old weight).