Push your child out the house at night

Hi! My first post here. I have a stale and cold relationship with my mother. I live in Northern Norway and has lived here my whole life. My mother was a single mother in the early days she had me, before she met her now ex-boyfriend.

I recall when I was four or five; it was either in '01 or '02. Either an autumn, early winter or late spring night. I can't remember exactly, but it was chilly outside and it was before I started school. We lived on the countryside and my mother was studying in a bigger city; where we live now.

She had to drive out of and back in to town every day; hard-working and studious woman, in other words. I recall, she used to have the same two-five female friends visit us. They lived nearby and were also studying for nurse status or something.

After watching children's TV, I think I was supposed to take a bath and get ready for bed. We were in the bathroom and she was helping me with something. At least, I remember I was completely naked, not even socks I think. Then I was probably being difficult, grumpy or summat. She decided to take me by the arm and drag me to the entrance, open the front door and push me outside to the front porch.

She shut the door behind me and probably locked it because I didn't try to open it. I cried and was scared for how long I was gonna stay outside. I was cold and I was naked. Then just seconds after, her friend arrived and she is walking up the stairs to get in. It happened so fast, it makes me think the friend was already out of her parked car as I was tossed out. So she must have seen the whole thing go down. I don't recall ever hearing her car parking, so that probably happened while I was inside.

Thinking that her friend saw me naked and get punished was the most embarrassing moment of my life at that time. My mother notices her friend and then opened the door; she closed it again so I stood there a bit longer. Not even a minute later, I think I open the door and let myself in. I don't remember the aftermath. I was an independent child and could often bathe, change and clean myself early in my life, so that wasn't a problem. I didn't know that my mother was expecting company. In retrospect I see they were probably going to study or chat together so she wanted me to bed before that and got stressed.

I wouldn't do this to someone; not my own children, when I have them. The reason is that I found my mother was unreliable and unpredictable, which scared me. This only happened once, but I terrified me at first. Has anyone had something similar happen to them? Or done something similar? I would like to hear some opinions about this situation that was.