Relationships are a little scary

It's a little scary to be so intimate with a human being. And so much to risk and much expected of me. I've never had a proper relationship. I have dated much but I feel intimidated by most other adults. I really try but then the guys think i'm cute and they don't pay attention to anything I do like all the details and flaws which are the good parts. And they want so easy everything and I cant make anything easy in life.
I wish to meet my one best friend for life one day soon though and feel that it's not very disappointing because of most peoples dishonesty and attention craving.