Share your bullying experience
The shy, the timid, the quiet, the different, the outcast, whatever the reason for being picked on, share your experience:/ Are you still angry? how did it affect you?
It happened to me when I was about ten years old. I still remember her name. Elsie. She was a much bigger girl, very strong, intimidating, hefty, big boned, fat rosy cheeks, well fed, healthy. Everyday she brought with her a lunchbox (the class had "meal breaks") and in it was a meal "fit for a king": good, plentiful, hearty foods. Sometimes I used to think this was her refueling to have enough energy to bully me
I was puny, frail, petite sized, and wore the same clothes (we were poor then). Sometimes I would stare at her food because I was hungry.
She would verbally abuse me in front of the class. To this day i still resent the teacher for passively ignoring the abuse, would lightly say with a grin "Ohh elsie, be nice" and move on. Still the abuse continued.
The worst she did was at one point "randomly "rearrange the seating and "assigned" me to sit next to her. To this day I believe the teacher purposely and actively participated in the bullying by doing these kind of things
This is when the physical abuse began. When she sat next to me. She would elbow me, "accidentally" shove me, all sorts of physical attacks. I was too shy and quiet to even confront or say anything. I suffered in silence. It even took place outside of class. In recess, she would pretend to be playing with dodgeballs but slam them my way. Once, she threw a dodgeball with full force using her giant paw like arms and hit me right in the head. But I was scared of this big girl. IT was an absolute nightmare
I would sweat. I would get shaky just thinking I would have to go to school and experience the abuse again
I had an emotional breakdown in front of the whole class one day because I couldnt take the abuse anymore. I refused to sit next to her. I stood there crying. It was both embarrasing and humiliating. But in the end the teacher made me sit next to her. IF there is a god, then it was my witness to all the events
I am a 26 year old female. To this day, I still feel a sting of pain when I think back to that nightmare. I still resent Elsie and sometimes I wish her bad fortune to pay back what she did to me. Ill never know why she hated me. Ive considered black magic and resorting to the dark arts. Is this normal?
People who have had these bullying experienes, have you gotten over it? Have you forgiven the person? (I havent, and probably never will; too many things happened)
Is it normal that I havent gotten over it?:(