Should i drop out of college?

My situation is somewhat unusual, so hear me out.

I've been attending college for the last six months and I don't like it. I can't really say that I totally hate it: I actually enjoy aspects of all of my classes and last semester, I got mostly As and Bs, so it's not because I'm a terrible student. I really liked the first month of college, but then the novelty of being away from home wore off, my classes got harder, the weather got colder, and I drifted away from all the friends I had made during the first month once I realized how unlike me most of my fellow students are. The fact that I never drink or have sex with strangers largely excludes me from college social life, so I spend most of my time in my room watching Netflix and writing. Because of all this isolation and confusion, I developed severe depression, not leaving my room for days at a time.

But my depression is better now because I know what I want to do with my life. I want to be a film director. I know it's not the most practical career choice, but I'm terrible at anything involving numbers and equations, so for me, there is no practical career choice. I love film: watching movies, writing movies, reading about movies, and making movies is the only thing that gives my life meaning. For the first time in my life, I believe in myself. I know that I can be a great director. One of the best things about being a director is that you don't need a college degree: only talent and experience. In fact, college would only be a distraction, taking away time and energy that I could put into my directing career. As a result, I want to drop out of college to pursue filmmaking full time.

Unfortunately, my parents aren't fond of my idea. They think it's great that I want to be a director, but even though I told them repeatedly that you don't need a degree for it, they want me to go to college for three more years and graduate. I came up with the idea of taking a gap year as a compromise with the idea that if I proved my talent and commitment to directing, they would let me drop out permanently and if I failed and did nothing, I would have to go back to college. They thought this was a good idea, but they said I could only take a gap year a year from now and not starting at the end of this semester like I had planned. This seemed fair enough at the time, but the more I think about it, the more the idea of going to college for another year seriously depresses me.

In fact, the only reason why I haven't already dropped out is that I have such a great scholarship that I pay about 1/10th of what the average college student pays each semester. It's still expensive, but it's a once in a lifetime deal. My parents worked very hard to get me into college and are thrilled by how cheap it is, so I'd feel extremely guilty about throwing it all away. But my heart is not in college: nearly everything I do that's school-related seems pointless. I can't transfer to a film school, either because I'd lose my scholarship: my parents would rather have me drop out than transfer.

I just know the real world would be a better fit for me than college. I'm a very unusual 18 year-old. I have no desire to drink until I'm 21 and after that, I'll only ever drink in moderation. I wouldn't really want to have sex unless I'm in a monogamous relationship with someone I love. I don't like parties unless they're small, low-key, and free of any really dangerous activities. As a college student, I'm a weirdo, but as a working adult, I'd be a model citizen. Every aspect of college is seeming more and more absurd to me every day. If I left college, I would be totally 100% committed to filmmaking every day: it wouldn't even feel like work because I love it so much. But for someone in my situation, the thought of leaving college is just as unfathomable as the thought of staying. What should I do?

Stay in College 12
Take a Gap Year a Year from Now 8
Take a Gap Year Now 8
Drop Out of College 3
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  • Steve2!

    Child, the purpose of college is to provide one with the opportunity to gain qualifications and further one's knowledge. You don't go to college to drink and whore yourself out to strangers. Anyone stupid enough to do that is merely a common fool who should not be poisoning the environment of higher education with their plebeian stench.

    I STRONGLY recommend that you finish college first, then work towards your desire of becoming a film director. Being a college graduate can only help you with that.

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  • swurls

    Do what makes your heart smile

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  • Cocomilktitties

    As a fellow college student, I have to say that you actually sound pretty normal to me. Most of my friends don't enjoy drinking to excess or having promiscuous sex. I mean, there are certainly a group of people who do that in college, but it's not as big a percentage as most people think it is. It sounds like the friends that you made first month probably just were of "that" type. But I can pretty much guarantee that there are students more like you on your campus.

    I don't think the idea of you taking a gap year is a horrible idea. IF... you really have an idea of what you're going to do. If you have some ideas of projects that you could work on for your film making career, then go for it! I don't really know how that industry works, but I would assume that you need some level of credibility to get yourself out there or have some connections. So like I said, if you have a plan, then taking a year off is not the worst thing in the world. But just throwing yourself into filmmaking right off the bat might not be the easiest unless you know some people or already have some projects ready to go or something.

    I would also say it's a different story if you didn't have such a great scholarship. But for 1/10 the cost? It's almost stupid to not take the degree. Now don't get me wrong, if you take a gap year or something and you get famous or start making big movies, then by all means skip the degree lol. But unless you KNOW you can make good money off of it, it's wise to just get a degree. That way you can always fall back on it.

    And lastly, I would suggest you check into your school's major options if you haven't already. My school actually has a filmmaking degree. I think if you want to be a filmmaker, getting a degree in something film related is a great way to build credibility. And there are also lots of other degrees that could compliment that such as journalism, literature, history, some schools have video production type stuff, even a business degree could be helpful. If you have a degree in something that could compliment your desire to make films, it could help you a lot probably when it comes down to picking between you and the next guy.

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  • Nickadams25

    I'd advise against dropping out (worst thing you could do). And don't be selfish, make your parents proud; if you're meant to direct, a college degree won't hinder your abilities -four years is nothing to someone looking back in regret. Do college. And do film school, if you must. But don't find excuses to drop out. You DON'T need to drink or have sex to have a social life. You'll figure it out. Keep going -"The best way out is always through." _Robert Frost

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  • DADNSCAL

    This is probably the very thing you don't want to hear, but dropping out would be a mistake. I wanted to drop out in my freshman year, but my older sis talked me into sticking with it and it was the best advice I ever got. It's ver normal to feel list, depressed and overwhelmed the first year. Take courses that will prepare you for film, and then you can do whatever you want. Enjoy your time in school. It's the best time of your life. You'll be working for the next 50 years or so.

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    • noid

      It's not the best time of everyone's life. I found it very stressful. Boring too if you don't have friends. Just sayin.

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      • SherlockHolmes

        Truth. I'm suffering with this situation because I have no friends and the career I want to follow doesn't have anything to do with the classes I have.
        For some people this is a real waste of time and depressing...

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        • noid

          That sucks, hopefully at least your next life phase will be better.

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