Should i go? and advice

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I've been looking for work for a long time, unsuccessfully, I have severe social anxiety, I've gone hungry before because I couldn't face going to a busy store, I mess up simple things out of anxiety for example not being able to get the change right on a busy bus, even though I'm not bad at math, and every time I leave the house, from the moment i leave the door to the moment I close it behind me all I can focus on is my walk and body language, I feel like everyone looks at me and can see I'm an anxious wreck and I think it reflects in my walk, so its all I can think about

It's the main reason why I've only been able to get the odd day of temp work here and there,

The other day I got a Facebook message from someone I used to be on a course with asking if I'm looking for work, she has a cash in hand job as a steward for a car show, meet at midnight, get driven to surry which is about two hours away, start at 3 am and finsh at 6pm for 100 pounds cash at the end

I'm broke, to the point of not being able to eat properly and loosing weight, I need the money, but, there's no training at all, its literally get there and right, crack on with it, with,

Organising and guiding cars to parking spaces,

Taking tickets at the gate

Setting up

Unofficial security and customer service for the event, talking to the crowd etc and crowd control,

I don't have experience in any of these at all, and i suffer from really bad social anxiety, I can see myself freezing up and walking away not being able to cope, but I'm a two hour drive from home with no money

Also this person who has the job is unemployed themselves, they make their money by renting out part of their council flat, son that combined with the fact that it's cash in hand, no paperwork, no experience, no training makes me wonder if the whole thing is legit even if I could do it, and after an all nighter my anxiety gets so bad I feel like I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown,

I really don't know what I should do could anyone give me some advice please?

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    Wear a hat and shades to hide behind.
    If you do not take a first step to conquer your anxiety, how do you expect to beat it? Go. Do the job. Do not walk away. Be strong.

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  • Rainbowbash
    8 years ago

    Gypsy has the right idea here, I do have social anxiety, but nowhere near as bad as you... If you can, grab one of those protein bars at a convent store to help with the all-nighter. Wear heavy clothes to make you feel safe and protected, but only if it's a tad humid/cold out as in heat, you may get hypothermia from sweating to much. If you can, try to make a friend! Just anybody you meet, doesn't even matter. Try your hardest to befriend them, and talk to them about all of this. This helps A LOT.

    God bless - RainbowBash.

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