So what can i do
I do not have any joy in anything in this life. Everyday I feel exhausted and my head pounds. If I do nothing, if I do boring things, stressful things, fun things... Same outcome of emotion and no energy.
Everytime I feel the tiniest shred of happiness something awful happens. At some point you stop and ask yourself what you are even hanging around for then. I go to therapy. New psychologist again. She asked me to write down my emotions throughout everyday. I havent done it because there is no emotion and I see no point of writing that down or doing anything else for that matter. I also cannot tell her this because she will have me locked up. My own family was considering putting me to a psych ward a year ago so what wouldnt she do when im not even honest with my family about everything. Jesus