Specific things i should know
It's a giant leap daring to disbelieve religion and deluding yourself into thinking it's not true, but nihilism alone is bullshit. If it's of no meaning and constructing a meaning I'm done, and if I'm not doing nihilism it's because it's not reality, it deconstructs philosophy, what bullshit. Do you believe people beliefs because people say so?
The answer lies in the things I have to do: that I have meaning but not a negative meaning, that reality is simply the package deal of what I think, that I need my muesli and coffee, that I need my Les Deu Cuqs (the shop I go to) quiche, that my writing's of prime importance, and that my ideas are the best, inaccurate copies of my mind.
Things I should know is when a perspective's a fantasy and when it's wrong, and also the disillusionment of deliberately refusing any self-destructive call such as selflessness, questioning my beliefs, and whatnot, I say no, it's very negative and whether Leo on actualized.org looks good in his lying, logical, trying-to-change-people rubbish, who cares? The answer's no, I'm getting out of all modern-day cults, the danger is losing the old you. No, I'm not taking belief from a game designer, these people are insecure and full of shit, they're afraid that your ordinary life, real as it is, is that way and no other way, they're cunts, and I don't listen to cunts of any kind.