The idea of spanking
I was going through Youtube and I found this. A clip 9 seconds long, a small skit about a small child hiding his father's belt, so he wouldn't be whipped. His father is screaming at him.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JCIWNyFGu8
I saw this video and I couldn't stop watching it over an over again. I fantasized about being in the child's place, to be in that destructive situation. I wanted to feel his anguish, the fear he felt. It wasn't in a sexual way at all, I was completely focused on the pain and terror I knew he had to be feeling. Can anyone explain this?