This is just a rant i am sorry jaja

Well I guess that's why people transition. It's entirely up to you to decide whether you can accept living in a female body while feeling like a man, or if you would really be happier if you transitioned. I personally actually have no idea what a female to male transition looks like when it comes to genitalia but I can't imagine it's very pretty. And one thing you should keep in mind is that if you do decide to transition maybe you will feel better because your appearance matches how you feel inside, but it will bring another world of drama with it. There will be someone out there for you I'm sure, but most people will look very very differently at you as it is still not generally accepted as normal and even people who do accept it still feel a certain type of way about it. It's a difficult situation to be in and I wish you all the best. I hope you find peace with who you are no matter what you decide to do.

Why are you gender-boxing yourself? Why can’t you be an attractive person?

I did think about my identity a lot, and i have noticed that it was actually something that i had experienced since i was a child. Like, since i was 5 or 6 i always felt more like a boy, and i made up excuses to explain why i felt like that. Then when i was a teen it just became even more noticeable but i let it slide bc i didn't want to think about it. It scared me i guess. And now, last year, i just kind of accepted that i am who i am. So, maybe autism makes it worse but i think my transness(?) it's still there regardless.
Thank you for the explanation and for being polite. Really appreciate that.

I haven't, but my little brother is autistic and i have been doing some research lately (to understand him better) and it has caught my attention that i somehow recognize some of my behaviours/thoughts. Some similarities. But i am not about to auto diagnose myself lmao. Why you asking? Now i am curious.

In my 20s

So youre trans but you look like a hot dude?