Tried pot : life feels fake

i am EXACTLY the same as you, your whole perseption on life has changed you have opened up new realms in your mind because of mary jane
do you: feel insignificant?, feel like you have no control over things anymore? also do you feel like time (not years or months) but say a weekend goes real fast now? like hours just fly over? if yes to any of those then yea it is the pot dude, i kind of like it i can think of things and say things i never would before, but obviously you dont, so if you dont like your mind being altered dont take mind altering drugs! also try to find something new to focus on, maybe exersise, you feel very alive after a long run or weight lifting session, i guarantee you if you focus on other things it will improve but dont smoke anymore good luck

dude i have been readin most of this the whole way down and i know this was a long time ago but iv had litterly the exact same expierences like almost the same and im extremly scared and wondering if i should tell my parents or what because i was freaking out tonight again like nothing was real and its been about 3 or 4 weeks since and i know this was a while ago but do you have any advice for me?
or does anyone want to help me out please

Lets be honest now, this shit is probably never going to go away. I've had this for about 10 months now and the only thing you can do is accept it and go with the flow. Fuck it, it is what it is. I'm 20 and look at life like a fake a piece of shit. I'm going throught the same thing and it was all because of marijuana and my last bad trip I had. What can I say I have no one to Blaim for my own mistakes. The only thing that takes this away is listening to quaran. That's the only thing that holds my mind together or else my mind is all over the place. I'm Muslim and I pray everyday, the way I look at it now is I guess it was just meant to be... I just wanted to be honest instead of trying to make you feel better. Good luck with everything.

The problem isn't the new sensations that you're having.

You're just SO NERVOUS about the sensations. If you are really that nervous, go see a therapist. She or he will probably tell you that your problem is your nervousness.

I could be wrong, but Id bet that Marijuana had absolutely nothing to do with this change in ur perception. It sounds as if your personal philosophy has changed, or as if you've had some form of personal revelation that has fundamentally changed the way you view and experience the world around you. It could be nothing more than a Neuro-Chemical reaction, but in my experience this feeling of "Unreality" is not something that one acquires by smokeing any amount of Marijuana.

Have you went through an intense period of Introspection or Contemplation recently?
Have you been questioning the very nature of Reality and your place in it?

lol A persons first experience of Marijuana can be a very life altering experience. It can make you question a great many things, that beforehand, would have never even crossed your mind.

lol ya i've heard of brain fog. do you know why you have it? is it the weed or the thyroid?

you're just tripping yourself out.

i was with a friend today and i got really nervous about what you said and i almost started feeling like you..

its all in your head.

well, marajuna doesn't start affecting you sometimes until you sit down and slow down. If you smoke and your supper active it doesn't have an affect.

Does this mean once (or even IF) it goes away i can smoke again?

SO many people go through this that i'm beginning to question whether weed is really the safest drug out there.. let's be honest.

it most likely is some sort of paranoia. i used to go through things like this myself, but it was more temporary and only lasting a few minutes/seconds and wasn't permanent. this happens to most people, i think, who smoke pot. which is why most people just STOP doing it.

yours will go away. you DON'T have depersonalization disorder. don't worry about it. depersonalization is a serious disorder that is usually underwritten by severe physical/sexual abuse in childhood. it is impossible for you to develop it JUST from pot. if you do have it, you have a temporary form of it. this will NOT last forever.

you might want to go to a therapist, depending on how long this has been lasting. i doubt you'll need any serious meds or anything. go see a counsellor or something about it. and don't worry. i've spoken to my doctor about this stuff and wasn't embarassed to mention i smoked. he said the feelings were completely unrelated and i had low blood sugar.

just remember: you can always see someone about it. and your parents love you; if they found out you smoked some pot, they wouldn't KILL you over it :) im sure they'd be quite concerned.

this seems like just weed paranoia. nothing serious. its absolutely ridiculous how many people suffer things like this.

I have been following this "story" from the beginning and have finally decided to comment from a PROFESSIONAL standpoint. I do not typically do this however I feel I need to make my self heard. First of all, do NOT do drugs of any type ever again! Even though I can tell you want to at times, please don't. What you have been experiencing is psychological and I suggest you see a therapist as soon as possible. What you are experiencing is normal and quite common, and needs to be "properly" diagnosed by a professional. It is good that you have connected with several compassionate and friendly people on here, who share in similar experiences. However, everyone is different and no one can say for sure what it is that is happening to you. Please do not do Meth. If you really want to become psychotic and have irrational thoughts that drug will do it. I have worked with several clients who are going through the same experiences that most of you have talked about. Anxiety disorders are the main cause with underlying depressive episodes. The brain and the chemicals that are sent through the brain often times do not mix well with illegal/illicit drugs causing the issues you all are complaining of... Sometimes they go away on their own and sometimes they don't. Permanent brain damage happens EVERY time you smoke marijuana, EVERY time!!! Brain cells die. Short term memory loss and decision making along with emotional trouble are very common. If you don't want to continue to have problems, quit doing drugs. They give you a FALSE sense of reality. Yes, you might feel relaxed, and high and things may be funny, it is not real. Please seek professional help for proper diagnosis's, don't rely on people on here to second guess your condition(s). Good luck friends... Just say NO!

Is there anyone here who has overcome this feeling? It's been over a year now for me and I'm still freaking out. I'd love to make some friends. I'm scared a lot. I've contemplated suicide over these feelings. I'm a married father of three. I have so much to live for but it all seems fake. I really need guidance and support. How can we contact one another here? My email is somethingforpopsATgmail.com - please someone help me navigate my way out of this.

It’s all in your head

Just more likely with pot. It just makes you reflect and introspect a lot. Day by day you get a lot thoughts you don’t pay attention. While high you notice more of them. You also think aboutvmore stuff in different ways. Dwelling on these thought could stress you out which creates the feelings you have. You are fine. You just have a working brain lol

Yep. It’s perfect fine. I is called slight brain damage. It’s nothing that will stunt you. Just enough for you to notice. It will never go back sorry. Drug addict. You should have listen to dare lol. Naw bro you are fine. When you are in that state sometimes overthinking and anixety come alone with it. So when the high fades. The lingering feelings mixed the thoughts could cause a since of panic or derealization and depersonalization. How they continue is if you keep dwelling on the thoughts and worrying. It is fueled by anxiety. Stop thinking about it and it will go away. 2 years from now if you deal on it, it will come back. This could happen if you smoked pot or not

Hey guys I just want to give you tips and explain what's happening, I have been reading too much bullshit information on here. Here is my background :

- I am currently 20 years old.
- I started smoking weed from 15 years old up to 17 years old, I was smoking 5 - 7 joints a day.
- One day I took mushrooms and had some kind of bad trip (introspection, basically a bad trip because I was too young and too reckless to face reality), all i could see was all the bad things I was doing and how I was fucking up my life so I just stopped smoking weed the next day.
- Don't get me wrong I was still performing really good at school and new how to deal with weed, I kinda developed an intense resistance to weed, I just knew there was more to life and didn't want to identify myself as a pothead.
- I went to the doctor during that time (I was in college and wanted to drop out of this semester in order to have a new start with the new me), so I lied to him and told him I wasn't able to focus and everything so that he could give me a diagnostic of ADHD and so that I could stop this semester without it affecting my grades.
- I then started to feel the same thing you felt + I started having all kinds of philosophical thoughts and I thought I was becoming crazy.
- That thing went off after a couple of months
- I stayed sober from 18 years old to 20 years old.
- Then I started to smoke again for 6 months now, while working 30hours a week and being a full time university student.
- I then quit because I had one of those shitty introspection vibe and that made me realize I was kinda loosing all the control, will power, mental sharpness I gained during those 2 years of being sober and it stopped me from developing myself in different areas.

So now that you have a basic idea of who I am here is what you need to know and to do :

1. Never read your symptoms online, when you are in that depersonalization vibe you kinda look for something to grab as an explanation, but you won't find anything that will explain it, except the fact that your mind is trying to protect you from something by "detaching itself".

2. Don't try to understand it too much it will stop you from moving on.

3. Many things can cause that, it can be the chemical change (not being used to having so much dopamine in your brain, or the opposite), being lost in your thoughts and thinking that you realized something that seems more important than it actually is, an existential, a traumatic event, even a break up, etc.

4. Don't let it take control of yourself and don't start trying to change everything in one moment (for example don't say I will never smoke again, say I will smoke the day I feel comfortable about it and if it is worth it).

5. Don't smoke weed if your a human sciences student (like me), all we do is study humans so when you're high you're most likely to start wondering about life and why things are the way they are.

6. If you want to smoke weed you have to learn to differentiate the appropriate ways of smoking
examples :
- You smoke weed everyday to chill = you're a pothead.
- You smoke weed to get away from reality = you will never evolve.
- You smoke weed and know everything about weed and you're in love with it and blablabla = you're either a lowlife or a teenager.
- You smoke weed to make basic things seem more enjoyable = smarter than the other options but it doesn't last long and you end up needing more weed and not being able to enjoy things sober.

Personally when I was a teenager it was the third option and when I came back to it, I used as a stimulant. I only smoked when I had something to do, and I never mixed it with things that should be enjoyable sober like sex, going to the cinema, going to class, going out with friends, being with your family, etc.I used it at work sometimes, when I had to do intense study sessions like 12 hours straight or when I wanted to think about my next move (if you already have that "bigger picture mindset" you'll realize that weed can actually increase that and help you analyse many factors at once).

7. Don't listen to potheads arguments and those pro-weed people (if you're trying to remain normal and be successful, but if you just want to enjoy life because weed "has made you realize that there's more to life and blablabla" sure go ahead and stay in your own world).

8. Stay away from indica, that's the kind of weed that makes you think too much and make you "realize things" and have bad trips (by the way this is just your brain on drugs that has a bigger reaction to thoughts and gives you the impression of having a big idea, unless you learn how to focus it of course).

9. Develop your logical thinking that is what I did during those 2 years of being sober and that's what gave me the "power" to be able to smoke again a lot while being a full-time university student and work 30 hours, but once again like I said earlier I stopped for now because it is not worth it for me and it's just recreating an addiction.

10. Don't do what I did and quit on shot you're going to end up with a lot of shitty withdrawals symptoms.

Anyways those are just personal tips and logical advices to how to use drugs and if you want a simple mindset for now : don't worry man and don't try to fight it, it's like fighting a ghost it doesn't exist it's in your head just act like it isn't here even if you feel it is and when you feel weird or do something weird laugh about it don't be hard on yourself and trust me you will end up smoking again but next time keep it as a social things with people you feel comfortable with (even the way I used it when I came back to it was really useful but what goes up must come down and I ended up loosing control like I said).

Ive had the same issue for 6 months. and its all gone thanks to hope and God

Hey man I realize that you probably haven't been on this thing in a long time I read a lot of this discussion and then I realized that it took place over 5 years ago so I know this is a long shot but I figured it was worth a shot I'm 20 years old now and the same exact thing happened to me and I have a thyroid problem as well I'm under active which freaked me out even more reading this and made me think that I made this whole feed up in my head and that its all a figment of my imagination and same thing with my parents they'd kill me so I was wondering if this ever went away for you? And if you had any tips while it still lasts?

this post is so dead, but yeah i felt it too yay. smoked it when i was 16 everyday, for about 4 months, personally didn't feel the uh state of being until i was 3 months in to my blaze fest. i just remember looking at my friends while we were seating there. already stoned,and just not knowing who they were and i felt my whole body go numb. it was kinda peaceful at first, everything i saw was and felt was new, i felt like i was on(kinda still am) on an alien planet. i didn't know wtf i was feeling, i looked at everything, it was so fake, no just unreal, i just remember after another hit, all these questions running through my head, why am i here, why do i exist. i have no idea how to explain it, just apart from the fact that i didn't fear death anymore truly, i felt as though it was just another feeling or state, most of the time even now i don't even think about my physical body, i just think about the mind or spirt within me. it dulled after a while and but i was worried about it but just kept it to myself. being me i was so bored with my life, i had fried my fucking brain, i could not construct sentences with my mouth sometimes, the state, was not going away. after a month, i felt my whole "personality" go away, i felt like a robot i would just sit for hours by myself not even thinking, or thinking to much about why the hell i was here. i would try to picture a future, but everything seemed pointless, the world would end nothing i did would matter,everything and everyone would just be a not even be memory in the cosmos, i was 100% sure they're was no god, i even drew a dick in a chapel. i would look at people and be able to label there whole life. i just realised were all just perspectives on a spectrum, looking at one thing. i looked at everything like it was lower than me, that humans were just animals, primal in everything, i feel like i have no emotions or attachment to anything. but even thinking like this i don't see whats wrong. idk I'm not going crazy, I'm not scared of the way i see things now.but i know that i don't think i have the ability to love which is so cheesy the way it sounds, but when i look at anything i don't see feel just numbness and the sense that everythings unreal. but like the other reality, this one got boring but really fast.

Most of the comments in this post are from at least two years ago, so the post is dead. But maybe someone like myself will see it now and idk appreciate an up to date comment. I first smoked when I was trying to live the "Christian" life style about a year ago, nothing big happened, I said it was all over rated and did it once more and smoked a lot more and fell into a bad trip, everything was in slow motion, being touched hurt, thoughts were echoing, I thought I'd die. After that I didn't want to do it again. Still I felt normal. I started smoking on and off with some friends towards the end of my senior year of high school I started noticing that I felt weird, kind of fake, numb and figured that I needed to go up on my medication I was taking but was told it was due to a big change in life. Long story short I got pissed off and stopped taking said medication (it was for a slight mood disorder that seems now to be nonexistent). And picked up smoking some really heavy stuff. It put me so deep in thought and it was amazing. I remember stuff I never used to, think and question things I never would have. I feel a lot more open minded. Along with that came the loss of reality. I'll look around and feel like none of life is real. I lost my faith and now believe in no God or after death existence. I CONSTANTLY feel like I'm about to have some big realization about life. I also have a large lack of feeling or understanding of emotional feeling. All of which I feel now to be totally okay. Being active and finding something to be passionate about was what helped me come to terms with this new "open mindedness". No one is going crazy. Life goes on and it doesn't have to be bad.

Hope you're doing better. I know being in this mental state can be quite frightening. Although you are able to perform in life, often at times it feels like days are passing by and you aren't sensing life with the same sense of vitality and aliveness as you used to.

I had exactly the same experience and I cured it-twice.

The first time came on from anxiety about a personal issue and was cured via getting so busy living and taking on new hobbies, i.e strict exercise routine, work, football club etc that eventually i just forgot about it and grew out of it. However it was hard and it was always there nagging away, but the more i carried on with life, the less the awareness of my initial state arose. In this case, i just said to myself "well it isn't going away, better just life life to the full, the best i can..." Id also ask "What would i be doing if i was in a perfect mental state?" And then go ahead start doing it.
I think this method worked partly by chance. If my life hadn't been so busy and engaging at the time im sure i would have stayed the same.

The second bout came with the same cause as yours. Pot smoking at College.
This time it lasted for about 3 years, and was a lot trickier to shift. I didnt have the same luxury of endless time and a familiar environment as when i was younger. And with moving away from home for the first time i basically had to do the best i could at getting by day to day with the feelings you describe. It got to the point where life got so dull and felt so far away that i lost alot of motivation.

This time, to get back to the present I stopped my exercise routine for 4 months to gather my head, as i was going through the motions in every aspect of my life.
I restarted exercising but with focus, and introduced present moment awareness meditation. This was the key.
Honestly, it has saved my life. 8 weeks in and i feel so much better it is hard to put into words. It's as if i have a life again. It's as if the light switch to my life has been switched back to 'ON' mode.

At first i was skeptical, I was two weeks, three weeks, four weeks in and i didn't feel much different. A little clearer, but nothing like i remembered. I knew that when i was back to normal i would just know, you know? I carried on, with a focus on PRESENT MOMENT AWARENESS MEDITATIONS. I read up on what they were about and carried on with that as the focus. It was pretty painstaking to start, and hard to do.. Gradually the barriers that separated me from reality were broken down, and i became more and more in tune with reality and being comfortable in each and every moment, without the usual feeling of distance from day to day living. The first barriers to knock down were the hardest, after 4 weeks it was plain sailing and i really do feel like myself again.

I implore ANYONE living like this to give the above strategies a shot. I wouldn't wish these dissociative feelings on my worst enemy, there really isn't much worse than not properly experiencing life. Hope this helps anyway.

A.Wisdom

Can someone help me! I feel exactly the same as everyone else just i havent smoked weed heavily! I just had a really bad experience last time! I remember hearing ringing in my ears and i did not talk to my friend because i couldnt! From then on i feel like im in a dream! Sometimes its really really bad and i cant feel anything and other times i feel alot better but its still there! how long will this take to go!? Can someone help me? Im 17 and still in school and need to know when im going to be okay again! Its disrupting my school work and my life!

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Right.. Listen up please! Im 16 and About 4 months ago i started doing a little weed with one of my friends, i done it every weekend for about 4 weeks, i had a pretty bad hit the last time i did it, i started feeling like i was floating and didnt speek for about 8 minutes i also wend numb all over my body! i stopped weed at that point!! But about 1 month later i started realising everything feels fake, but only alittle bit! I felt 98% myself i took a walk to tesco one about a week after i started feeling weird then the whole feeling of being high came back for 15 seconds! from that point ive started feeling weird then when i think about it or sometimes even when i dont think about it the feeling of being high comes back! its been 3 or 4 days since that walk to tesco and i feel scared! i keep telling myself that i am okay but i dont feel like myself around anybody! Ive had three people tell me i look pale, im not sure what to do:/ my friend has the exact same thing as me and i just dont know what to do:/ my friends had it for a month and he said dont to to a doctor or dont go on blogs as you will only make it worse! for me this whole thing isnt as bad as some people make theres out to be and only done wee about 7 times in my life, will someone tell me if it will ever go and how do i get out of this state of mind! someone please:/ because quite frankley i dont feel like life is as nice as it useo be! I dont want to live like this ):

This dreamy feeling is u r mind protecting u. Anxiety is worrying thoughts. Pretend there's a switch in u r head if someone holds a gun to u r head the switch turns on and anxiety tells u to get out of there the switch turns off, but for most of u weed or any other drug or a traumatic event has turned on that switch and has left it on. Witch means u r anxiety is on and you are constantly worrying or think u r in danger and that's why u can get panic attacks.. That's why u thought u were paranoid. But u r not its just anxiety.

I would say will last any ware from 3 months too a year e dry body heals at there own rate.

Stay away from caffeine too it will cause u r thoughts to race faster and u will probably have a panic attack

When I say crazy I mean feel like yo
U are going to lose controll?

Does it also feel like you are going crazy sometimes.

I wouldn't smoke anymore it will prob happen again and even be worse. Mine was pretty bad I thought i died and was in another place everything felt so fake and dreamy. I went to the doctor she prescribed me a Antiey depressants I told her I would not take them so she said to excersise fourty minutes a day if uI can and honestly excersise Will make u feel better up to four to six hours a day and if u keep doing it u will feel better all the time eating healthy too helps.

You have an anxiety disorder I have the same thing it's been four months and I am almost back to normal. I read it can take up to nine months to fully recover.

First off, don't say you made a mistake for smoking a god given PLANT that has been on Earth for thousands of years. Secondly,did you ever think that it might be a good thing that you are having these thoughts? You smoked weed and opened your mind up to a the possibility of a reality different than that of which you think exists. You sound like you're just exploring you're mind and that's nothing to be paranoid about.

Weed does have a tenancy to make you feel spaced out and insignificant. I get what you mean though. When I first started smoking you do sometimes feel weird for a couple days after. If you stop smoking for a month it'll be out of your system to the point that you won't notice it anymore.

Just wanted to know if the page is dead , from S.a and yea I've had this for the last 3 months and it doesn't sem to be getting any better or to going away, zoning in and out , well I haven't stopped zoning , that's what its like , a constant zoning , just different levels.. I've read everything on this page , and yea , everything thts been explained I'm experiencing , my perception on everything has changed , I guess its a good thing but no1 wants to be in this forever

and for the rest of you that have no idea what this person is talking about and have never experienced these scary, world shattering, mind twisted, altererd state of reality know that this is a true thing, it does happen..:D

I have also experienced this a few times in my life. I rarely smoke weed unless i am drinking and say heck with it. First time i experienced this twisted sence of reality i was 15.. it lasted almost 3 months. The whole not feeling like myself, feeling detached, feeling scared, the world looked different. It was a very scary thing for me, and it traumatized me. Not enough to smoke weed again when i was 35... I smoked it and for about 3 weeks I was again unattached to reality...praying to feel normal.. but I couldn't. I snapped out of it again.. then when I had to much to drink, I again smoked a few puffs... and then for 1 month I was completely lost in thoughts, scared of the reality i was in, completely 100% thought I was losing my mind. I came back slowly to feeling normal again... and 3 months later I feel as though I am me again. Lesson learned, never smoke pot again, never induce this to happen to me.. You will be fine... I promise.. :D

This also is part of your dream, nothing is real here! We are just part of your dreams

Hello everyone. I am going through the exsact situation as the guy wh tried pot.... i am 14 and my life has been alterd ever since i have tried pot because i get a sense of depersonalisation. but i am just wondering becaue i have been freaking out about this quite abit which has caused panic attacks etc. i need some professional advice (or people who have exsperianced it) is it permernent or is it just temparary, and what should i do next...thanks im really scared

my first time ever using marijuana, i laughed my ass off and felt like i was in a dream world for a least an hour. I never could get that amazing first time dreamy feeling again. I wish i could get that high again, but im not gonna start heroin due to the matter.

How are things going? I think I might be going through the same experience as you. It's been several months as well. Just wondering how you are... Plus, wanted to offer the suggestion that you NOT try smoking again if you are tempted.

Don't be such a pussy man get lean.

made me definately wanna smoke marijuana! i have a friend that always smokes, but im afraid that ill get too high(and my parents will notice) and the cops will catch us (and the parents will notice) could you tell me how to smoke it?:D (i am a tobacco smoker :p )

you just seem like a really stressed out person. RELAX!

and no, i don't think you had DP/DR..

LOL..
well im glad you're getting better.

if you're that stressed out, you should try something else to relieve the stress. wasn't the pot the thing in the first place that was causing your stress and depersonalization and all of that?

maybe you're just going through an existential crisis; you're questioning the reality of everything around you. it's happened to the wisest of people.

that's good. see.. it's all about your attitude!

it's most likely something else, but the pot might have been a factor in it, too. i'd stay away from it. not even that it will make it worse, but you really don't need that junk for anything. next time your friends are toking, have a beer instead! it'll make you feel more relaxed and less anxious.. AND.. you'll get to see your friends do stupid shit when they're all stoned ;)

LOLLL... dude, you know what I think the cure for all of your problems is.

JUST READ ALL THAT YOU HAVE POSTED AND LAUGH AT IT.

honestly, i don't mean to be insensitive but you are hilarious. okay, so you smoked the weed.. the devil will not come and get you. how do you feel? do you feel like it's worse or not?

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Man, im starting to think alot of this has to do with just lack of sleep. I always feel tired and lazy,and i start to feel really tired around 7:30-8:00.

I had a nap the other day and felt almost normal again. Im going to start sleeping more also, i just hope the weed didnt make it worse.

OMG...I hate myself. I TRULY do. Yesterday, i got convinced to smoke weed, and me, thinking that it wouldn't hurt... I did it.

TBH it make it much worse, if any worse at all, but I dont know for sure. Im here to tell you this because im hoping i didnt screw myself up even further.

I heard that weed would calm you down so in a way, it would help your anxiety (as long as u dont have panic attacks while high).

Do you think this messed me up, im so sorry i screwed up...i know.

What do you think i should do?

They say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and i agree %100 of that saying.

I'm just about to start summer holidays and i know that i will forget about it then, so i might not come back to this post for a while after (hopefully i wont have to come back at all). Ill be getting summer holidays starting the 25th so that might be the last day im on !

I do believe forgetting about it IS the ONLY cure, because i notice that when i do forget and later i remember, i felt like it never happened to me. That means that it is all just my head being super paranoid, therefor making a very strong placebo effect that im getting this feeling.

PEACE

Okay well, im going to wait it out and try to see if I can get rid of it naturally. :D

Eventually if it has not passed by i will get the doctor to check me out cuz im sure i have anxiety.

Going natural has always been better than going to man-made medicines, right?

The thing about anxiety and DR/DP (no, not that kind of DP) is that _anything_ can trigger it. Smoking weed is just one of about 500,000 things that'll set it off in a person predisposed to these conditions.

So it's a pretty long stretch for your parents to immediately make the connection to weed, that's all I'm saying.

And why do you feel the need to tell your doctor it happened while being high? It's not like the treatment for weed-induced anxiety is any different from treating anxiety and/or DR caused by anything else (except from telling the patient to NOT SMOKE WEED).

i don't know.. i'm writing a novel and last night for purposes of my novel (i'm writing a character who briefly suffers from DP after having been physically abused) i was looking up DP .. and incidentally (to my dismay) i saw that it CAN be brought on or precipitated by drug use. that's not to say you just 'get it' from drug use, but the website said it can trigger it. but i mean.. it seems like you're getting over it. you still feel like you have it?

peer pressure? why should you have to worry about what other people think.. and dropping marks? are your marks dropping because of your mental state? maybe you don't have DP, but there's definitely something going on that you need to discuss.

Look up "depersonalization" and "derealization", not particularly enjoyable conditions. Trust me, you don't want to go down that road. Lay off the weed.

You might want to stop smoking weed and think about getting involved in to doing the macarena. The macarena is a very fun dance and is very family orientated.

Okay.... :D thanks. I was just really down in the dumps that day. I wont do weed again, i promise. I know that ill regret it and will only get worse.

I am just really sick and tired of this bullshit. Its really pissing me off because i didnt do anything to deserve to live like this. I smoked weed like 3-4 times. No1 of my friends has this.

My life is getting really hard on me right now, thats for sure. peer pressure, dropping marks, tired 24/7... but ill keep on fighting through this.

Ill stay away from weed, dont worry. I hope i can get over this.

Do you think its possible i could have this for... the rest of my life?

don't smoke weed! don't do something you'll regret later. you don't need weed for anything other than killing brain cells... there are other, more productive ways to spend your time. jneil19 is right!

nah man, stay away from weed. just relax, get into a spa, sit on a bean bag chair, and read a book. do something that can relax your brain, and body and take your mind off things that arent real. sure enough youll forget all about it like it was never there, trust me on this!

Im probably going to try smoking weed again. Some people i have heard of having this recovered by smoking weed again. So, yeah

i dont know what to do....

actually, scratch that. I dont want to take any risks.

good news, a few nights ago iwoke up because ifelt different than usual, i was looking around and things actually started to "Register" into my head when i looked at them. I still feel the improvement and i think my brain is healing day by day :P

ya, im a university student too and had something similar but to a lesser extent. mine only lasted a few minutes.

its all about thinking. i can bring it on again just by thinking about it.

i just read up on brain fog.. i think i had this, too. it says it can be caused by paranoia and mental fixations, which i think was the case with me (and probably with you).

i actually found out that it is called "Brain Fog". I researched it and found out that brain fog is NOT permanent. So im glad to know that i will be getting over it eventually :D

i always wondered if Derealization or depersonaliation was like being in a lucid dream..

and you think weed is scary.. i had some crazy lucid dreams because i fell asleep at 9am. i always get them at that time.. i don't know why some people want to purposely bring them on. ugh.. at one point i woke up and my whole body was numb (or did i wake up?). i 'woke up' about 4 different times, only to find i was dreaming and then waking up again =/ when i finally WOKE up i had to make sure it was real and not a dream again..

lol. well im glad this conversation has helped :) im sure you will get 100% better soon, if you're already not. keep us posted!

lol

i watched the first few seconds of it.. it seems like this guy was pretty unhappy with his life.. he mentions having a 'bad year.' maybe that's what causes it, mainly.

lol saame.

nah, i'm not going to watch anymore things on DP/Dr or any such thing. even though i don't have it, i don't want to freak myself out. but thanks for the link.

ya, drugs are not or some people (like us). don't do salvia or shrooms.. i'm not exactly sure what you mean by 'realizing reality' (reality is always there and you're in it!) but i'm glad you're getting better :)

You should do shrooms, actually better yet smoke salvia. Salvia is legal, and it only last like 5 minutes. Get the strongest stuff you can and smoke that. Like the 100x or whatever. Then maybe you'll realize you are definitely in reality.

wait.. why couldnt he look at peoples' eyes? that's weird..

yeh im starting to think its not DP cuz i watched a video on a guy who had RECOVERED 100% of it and he described it WAYY more worse. he was having constant Out of body experiences and couldnt look at people eyes but mines alot different :"P makes me more happy to know that its probably not DP

^I know exactly what you are talking about and i cant explain it to anyone because they dont know what im talking about and wouldnt understand it. i mean i barely do.

Not like i dead but like i am trapped in my mind and im alwatys looking "INTO" everything and everything is foggy and distracting.

that's great to hear :)
of course.. because it's all in your head to begin with. so when you had it, you felt like you were dead? i have heard some people describe it that way.

i have just started biking with my friends for fun, and it really helps. it gets my brain/blood/heart running and i feel a little more alive :P its been fading away quite a bit lately. :)

I know FOR A FACT that getting it off your mind REALLY cures it. Because when i was on the March break i forgot about it and when i think back, i actually never even felt it there! Yes, so exercising and keeping it off your mind REALLY help. :D

Your story is similar to mine and I have been worried about having DP or some shit too. I dont know what it is I jsut dont want to feel like this anymore.
I wonder if I have an underactive thyroid or whatever you were saying...I am iron deficient so maybe that has something to do with it too?...IDK

i don't think you have DP or that even something like that exists. as a medical condition, its status is dubious.

I am pretty sure it is DP, but, i have found another reason i might be feeling this way.

About 1 year ago i was blood tested and they found a iron deficiency. They took me in for some more tests after i took iron pills for a while and then they realized for some reason i had an "Overactive Thyroid". I just seen this thing and its called "Hypothyroidism". This is and "Underactive" thyroid. The similar symptoms are - Fatigue, apathy, and Impaired Cognitive Function (brain fog) and inattentiveness.

I know it is a bit of a wild guess but do you think this could be it? Or Depersonalization?

Just Wondering!

Okay i feel like i have alot more control over it now :P ill get better , i know i will :D

Hmmmm..... How about you dont smoke?

Hey man relax this same EXACT thing happened to me last year. It was the most horrible feeling ever man. I watched a movie called "numb" in Which a man is going through the same thing. What you have and what I used to have is called depersonalization disorder I know because just like you I smoked last year for the first time and months after I was still feeling feelings of derealization and depersonalization and eventually looked at the internet for help and to see if other people were going through the same thing so I could make sure I wasn't going crazy. It feels like your just going through the motions when u feel depersonalized. What I did to get rid of the feelings is stopped thinking about it and stop researching it cause it would scare me and make me feel worse and then I continued to smoke so that I could face my fear and teach my brain that the feeling of being high is normal and can be controlled and after a few months I grew a tolerance to weed and after ignoring the feelings of derealization I was eventually completely cured so just hang in there man and unless u think ure mentally strong enough to do it I wouldn't try my way of getting rid of the feelings because it may not work for everyone and It might make u feel worse. And just so u know just because it's a legitimate condition it doesn't mean you are psychotic because it was brought on by drug use

Dude I feel the exact same way. Whatever you do DO NOT EVER SMOKE AGAIN OR DO ANY DRUGS. You should definitely read my story too. It's been like 9 months and this did happen from smoking weed. At first I would cry all night and freak out about how I felt. Now I am trying to keep living and doing things I used to enjoy. Nothing is the same. I've always believed in God and I even try to pray to him daily but for some reason it feels so hard. I am so disconnected from reality that simple things like driving feel so fake to me. I was even in an accident that totalled my car last month all because I ran a red light that I didnt know was red although I remember seeing it....i dont know I just want to be normal again. 4/20 and I'm terrified to smoke. I think we should talk, it may help.

ya. i agree with ryan :) you'll get over it, and you're already starting to get over it, so that's good.

ya dude,
i know a couple of potheads who had fucked up some aspect of their lives; a very intelligent philosophy student killed an entire year of university and got bad marks because he smoked too much (and did other drugs).

today , i went out with friends, and because it was 4.20 they all wanted to get high.. i didn't though, and i just had a few beers and had a great time. so WHATEVER :)

I'm pretty sure it's not the weed lol you'll get over it

NEWS FLASH !!! lol...

The guy who introduced me to pot, is now doing speed (amphetamine) ecstasy (E) and fucking his liver up with Tylenol !!!

We just found out today .... man i feel bad for him we r trying to get him to stop though before its too late. shit man, he isn't very close to me though but still. pretty messed up.

Just thought i'd post that here.

yea im feeling better than i had before (ALOT) but i still feel sorta hazy, not as bothersome anymore :P

just keep us updated on how you're feeling!

Thanks :D

in fact i went to my doctor and explained what happened, that i smoked weed, etc... and he told me i should NOT look these things up. he actually advised me not to.

lol are your friends like potheads or something.. all they talk about is weed?? that's lame!

lol.. it looks like you're a lot happier :) i'm glad to hear. how's the depersonalization, though? getting better?

HAHA.. or four ;)

don't listen to your friends. i started smoking because it was cool, too. and now, honestly, since i've stopped, my friends don't feel so great about it anymore. they don't do it as often and they don't see it as all that great.

It's just my friends and BEST friend do it and they tell me all the time about how much fun they have and I miss having that fun. It's SOOOOOO tempting.... but i don't want this to get any worse cuz it feels like im getting better. I could just be getting used to it though. IDK. Should i?

Do u think once im better i could smoke again without getting Depersonalized ? or even before i get better? will it get worse if i keep smoking?

instead of anxietynomore, check this out:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Myth_of_Mental_Illness

read up on some foucault and szasz.. it'll make you feel better about the way you perceive things, and perhaps more normal. ;)

this is hilarious.

i think that was a big part of your problem, then. the depersonalization was most likely a conglomeration of things, including your 'faking it.' you shouldn't have to hide who you are! you're a great person and you're very nice.. it's been a pleasure helping out! :)

anyway, you see.. because of this experience you learned something about yourself! it wasn't so bad.

so you talked to your parents about it, then?

http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/depersonalisation_and_derealisation.html

I guess this boy just has issues like everyone else... i would never turn into medications to control myself. I rather fight it off with what ever mind powers i have...lol. But seriously medication is not the way to go man. Do what you have to do to feel better tho.

you might want to suggest a book like this for a few people here who claim to have been depersonalized for years and years ;) i find it odd that someone experiencing this disorder would live with it for more than a year without consulting a doctor, counsellor or even trying to help oneself.

i don't think you need a book.. maybe just a change of mind-set. books like that can really make you get more anxious. i used to look stuff like this up and i would get panic attacks like everyday JUST BECAUSE i thought there was something wrong with me and i kept looking it up. when i stopped and changed my attitude (ie. "you're being a dumbass. weed didn't do this to you) everything was fine.

moreover, literature about anxiety PREYS on people who have had its minimal symptoms. for example, even a racing heart-beat could be considered a "limited symptom panic attack." AND people who write those sorts of books are aware that anxious people will want to delve deeper and deeper into it. they'll get more anxious because they'll be on the lookout for the 'signs' (all of which have been neatly provided in the literature). if you ask me, anxiety is something that medical companies created both to:
1. sell drugs
2. write and sell a lot of bogu literature.

if, however, you feel a book like this may help, i'd suggest buying one at a local bookstore and hiding it so your parents don't see (if you don't want THEM to know).

LOL ya your parents will probably think its weird not that you tried smoking pot (which they probably have back in the day.. remember that) but that you're going on and on about this!! i don't mean to be offensive.

Here is a link to it ---> http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/depersonalisation_and_derealisation.html <----

Please read it!!! It has helped me alot and the FULL book is there to order it but i dont have much money and my parents dont know and wouldn't get it anyway but i would recommend it!

I found an article that has explained almost EVERYTHING to me :D

sometimes i just sit there, and stare at nothing and get lost in my thoughts and just keep thinking and get spaced out. I feel dumber because im just staring at nothing alot. FML

don't listen to wildfire or you're going to DRIVE YOURSELF CRAZY.

it WILL go away.

assuming its depersonalization disorder is sort of bad, i guess. i mean ive been reading into this shit. i, too, am tired of feeling like im not here, and just wish that everything would come back, so i dont feel so inside of my head all the time. but the thing is, is that the fear is making it worse. and it may take a while for you to pass the fear. lots of people assumed it was depersonalization, some say it'll go away, to be honest, you never really know what it is. but this is a learning lesson. i don't wanna scare you, hell, scares myself too, but this may never go away. i'm 14, too. thinking about it will make it not go away, too. so. depersonalization order IS a symptom of anxiety and i have anxiety. lol, there's no answer for the main question, "will it go away?"

Well no, not just from pot but it is mostly pot what makes me feel these way. Tho I have try many other drugs, I khow that pot is what has a bad effect on me. And I have develop the so call bipolar disorder, I have always been sorta bipolar but weed has severely affected it more. I khow that my best bet is to quit smoking weed and doing other things but I khow I wont.

no problem, spicystuff :)

i'm a lot sounder of mind, lately (maybe its the weather) and i feel more comfortable tackling this issue. but can i tell you something? i've talked to my doctor, and he said there is no connection between using pot and prolonged psychological illness... just a thought.

WOW just calm down, I've had this for over two years and i have realize that im the only one that cant change it. And i have become a better person do to have done what i done, and tho i feel depersonalized i have been getting better. My advice is that you have to realize that its only the sanity that keeps you together that you can work with to become who you want to be.
Good luck.

ya, i definitely don't think i had this...

im going thru the same thing i dont kno what too do but just watch evrything go by lik days go by soo fast and this happened ystrday im idk what too do ihope it stops 4 u cuz im frekin outtt

ack, you're making ME kind of paranoid.
i think i'm going to have to stop opening old wounds..

the research is your biggest problem; that's what screwed ME over. stop doing research and live your life. maybe do some meditation, exercise.

you are normal .. why do you think you aren't? everybody has problems. and a lot of people have this problem as well.

does it happen when you're calm as well or do you find yourself on edge when you experience the 'weird spaced out' feeling?

ya, i've had that before.

i know how it feels. its weird.

maybe you should see a doctor.

your feeling like you don't care much about things anymore is probably the big issue here, and not the weed. have you been to the doctor yet? 3-6 months is sufficient to be experiencing something like this. wait 6 months and if it doesn't go away, see someone about it. you'll be fine! :)

I just feel like i dont care about much anymore, and i go off into a daze alot and am always kinda spaced out.

i dont get it ... ?
so if you take your mind off it then it goes away ..? then, its obviously your mind.

your mind can be a very powerful thing. remember. i learned that myself. i can't say that i completely understand what you're going through (although i've went through my fair share of bizarre modes of consciousness) but i can speculate. and i'm telling you--based on experience--2 things you need to know:

1. at this point its ALL in your head.
2. the mind is a very powerful, potent tool.

also, i wanted to ask: have you ever had anxiety or anything like that BEFORE this? before you started smoking

ya, that's why i got scared when trippy stuff started happening. i thought: i'm going mad.

maybe you're just tripping yourself out.

i thought it can't be psychoactive past a couple of hours, even though it's stored in your fat..

you said months but how many months, exactly??

and i flushed the weed (sry to say for the weed lovers lol).

Ok. I smoke weed and I love it. But I don't delude myself into thinking there are absolutely no harmful effects. It sounds like you induced Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder via marijuana. This is a legitimate condition. If induced by drugs its usually by the psychedelics like LSD or shrooms. But it CAN be induced by marijuana. The vast majority of people can use weed without becoming depersonalized. Stay off ALL drugs (this includes alcohol). See how you feel. See a psychiatrist (or psychologist, i always get them mixed up haha). I did lots of reading on this after someone close to me found themselves in the same situation as you. It wore off after 5 months. Unfortunately for some people it never wears off. Good luck.

to the auther of this post: if understand how you feel, these new sensations are very hard to get your head around, i think you are going through a paraniod/ anxious stage everybody who smokes goes through it at some stage. if you give up weed it will go away gradually. imagine this: the weed has opened a previously closed door, ok so now you dont want it open, so you give up weed, (cutdown first, going cold turkey can have worse effects), imagine you are totally clean, now that door that has been opened slowly starts to close again, as if being pulled by gravity because the weed is not in your system holding it open, so it slowly starts to close by itself, the feelings of life not being real will go away because your mind is adjusting again to being sober. eventually this will go away and you will feel more in control. i think the whole problem is that you feel like you cant control these new feelings caused by weed, maybe you should talk to your parants or someone professional. wish you luck i will keep checking this post to see how youre getting on so keep us all informed :)

YES OR NO .

ALL I WANT TO KNOW IS WILL THEY EVER GO AWAY!?!?!?!?

Or is it permanent

its not that i am just over thinking about some theory of life i read. it is actually a scary sensation IN MY BRAIN. PLEASE i feel so stranded!! help :'(

its a disease i saw a mivie about this whit mathew perry he had the same problems and it all started whit weed...

Marijuana CAN store itself in your fat cells for up to 3 months, because it's fat soluable like vitamin A.

But in order for it to be in your fat for 3 months you have to smoke pretty heavily. You say you smoked for 3 months, did you smoke every day for three months? if so how many grams did you smoke a day?

if you were smoking like an 8th a day it'll be a few months, but if you were smoking like an 8th a week it'll probably be a month tops