Volunteering isn't rewarding
I've never had a job before so needed a reference. I thought I'd volunteer at a charity shop. I've been doing this for a few months, but it's nothing like I expected.
I certainly haven't made friends. The other volunteers are nice, but we just pass each other by, say "hi" to each other, explain your job, and that's it.
There was a social pub meeting so that you could at least get to know each other in a casual setting once a month but it never went ahead, and I haven't heard anything since then in the following months, so whether I'm not being invited or they just don't do it...
I'm glad I'm helping people by volunteering, but it's not that amazing. It's quite boring. The posters said we'd be a great team and sites on loneliness and depression said it would cure me which it hasn't, so I'm left to wonder what's wrong with me because I Googled it and nothing really came up, just people saying how much better it made them feel.
No offense but I'm a teenage girl and nearly all the people there are middle-aged women I have nothing in common with. I don't mind age, as long as we can have a laugh, but it doesn't happen. I also prefer men, of which there are none. Don't ask me why. I'm extremely shy which I can overcome when somebody else leads the conversation and makes me feel at ease, but while the 50 year old female manager is pleasant enough, she's really not a positive and charismatic individual.
Instead of feeling proud, I feel like a total loser with nothing better to do than iron clothes for a shop. I don't tell anyone I volunteer because it's embarrassing.
TL;DR I'm extremely lonely but volunteering hasn't helped.