What does this mean?
I don't quite remember how this one started but there was a big party/parade/celebration in my home town. I was excited about it for some reason.
I decided to go skating with my sister and heard a guy I liked for the past 3 years was in town at the party so I walked into town to see him and sure enough there he was with his friends.
I got a bit embarrassed? Flustered ig?
I forgot my phone at the rink so I ran back there (this felt like I was running through my school's halls). I got my skates on, grabbed my phone, asked my sister if I could trust her with my switch (it's the animal crossing ver) and she said yeah. After that I sped down the street in my skates. I was super excited to show off and impress Isaak but for a second I stopped and sat on the grass of the intersection by a gas station, a drugstore and, my old intermediate school. I had won something from my high school for some reason and when I flipped my over to see what is was, it was a coupon for fruity vapes. I was weirdly devastated and snapped right out of my dream and woke up immediately with no outside help.
This dream was weird af
I feel like the dream ended abruptly because of this one time Isaak (my ex crush from the past 3 years) said he thinks girls shouldn't smoke at all.
I don't.
--- he stopped me as I was walking out our class. literally lowered his 6'4" self down to my 5'8" self and told me right to my face that "girl's don't smoke" and I was just dumfounded. like, ok? I don't? never have?
He smokes so idk why he cares but theres that.
A reason for why skatings so important in here, I'm guessing it's cause I'm an inline speedskater. I've been skating for 12+ years ever since I was 4.
One time Isaak and I were in Spanish together (we sat right next to eachother side by side at the same table) and one of his friends was boasting about how good I was and he looked at me and praised me like he was genuinely impressed.
I've had a lot of moments w/ this kid. It kinda sucks cause he's a senior graduating early in the spring and I'm a junior graduating next year.
I also know he knows that I liked him. His friends just think I'm weird because I like anime. I've liked anime for 6+ years so I can't exactly just stop. It's a comfort thing for me.
They do think I'm cool for the cars I have tho. I got picked up after detention w/ one of his friends in a blue zo6 corvette and oh god that kid was shaking in his boots lol
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I'd like to say I don't like him anymore but hell, I liked him for 3 years.
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Sorry, this is a bit all over the place btw!! I just wanna know what this means