What is the most painful thing someone has ever said to you

I just saw a video like this on youtube, and i think it would be interesting to ask here.

I'll go first.

I was going on a walk, with my older brother. It was almost night, we were walking around a park and just talking about life and stuff.

You know when people say parent's don't have "favourite kids"and stuff, i always joked around with it and told my parents and siblings how i was "no one's favourite child" bc my mom liked my older brother better and my dad liked my younger brother better (middle child stuff you know). It was a joke i used to make.

So we were just talking, and i just said it out loud.

"You are mom's favourite, she doesn't even like me that much, you know it"

And he just, responded.

"Is not that she doesn't love you, you just made her suffer a lot"

...

My heart fucking shattered.

Mind you, at that time, i was just getting a bit better, but i had been battling with deep depression. To the point i didn't eat, i lost like idk 10-12 kg, didn't bathe, didn't go out. I experienced a terrible traumatic thing that left me anxious and depressed, she doesn't know it but i was borderline about to end it all multiple times. I literally have amnesia, don't remember much on my adolescence.

And my mom did nothing.

I know it must have been hard for her. Of course like, seeing your child like that must be terrible.

But i was suffering too.

I was suffering so fucking much, much more than her, that's for sure. Bc it doesn't matter how much you feel for someone you will never feel what they are going through, which is 10x times worse.

She knew.

Yet she did nothing.

She didn't ask. Didn't ask what was wrong, if i needed anything. If i was okay. She knew i was dying inside and she literally did nothing.

She is a psychologist, mind you, it's not like she was clueless.

That was really fucking painful.

But what followed was the final straw.

The experience that broke me and had me feeling so much pain happened while i was on a trip. I changed so much after it.

My brother just said

"You became a different person, it's like you died on that trip, and the old you never came back home"

It hurt because, i really tried. I really tried not to die. I tried to live so hard.

But, apparently, i did die anyways.

It was harsh to realize.

Feel free to upload yours here, if you feel comfortable. If not that's okay too. Have a nice day/night💜