What should i do about this secret person in my life

30 year old female just getting started out and learning about bdsm it's my fetish. I am submissive as fuck and like a dominant male to fuck the dog ass shit out of me and we'll I'm kind of already in relationship that my significant other dont know about. What should i do? Should i tell him or continue to hide it from him? I do love him it's just he really controlling and abusive and it's always about him and he lie and really don't love me and I guess already got some one else he be bringing over all the time around me and I'm tired of it there slick comments all the time about me like I don't know it and it's more than that to much to put and to little time I will explain later one on one in private if y'all have time to talk to me I really need to vent and then it's not fair cause they know what they doing and they not stupid like right now they know I have really bad anxiety but the dude that I'm with always wanna sit his big headed ass in my room and bring his childish ass loud ass disrespectful friends that like to trash the whole house and expect for me to clean it up after them every day like I explained in the post earlier. What should I do? I really want to leave and be with dude who he kicked out of his own house but I don't know how to and the funny part about things is we are not in love or nothing just met really good vibe and he help me and I help him we never done nothing and even tho we get accused by everybody we still manage to make it through the day he just a really good friend like what the fuck did I do to talk to deserve all this bs in my life God I hate my life and wish I never fucking existed.

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  • Tinybird

    That's what happens when your kink is liking to be bullied and dominated. Why would you expect any different.

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  • Tommythecaty

    Op is either a trolling man or a retarded woman.

    Hilarious.

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  • ospry

    I have a really hard time sympathizing with you. If your kink is to be humiliated and physically beaten, then it's impossible to feel sorry for you when you realize the guy only want to humiliate and beat you. It's your kink, so quit bitching and get beat up

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  • CDmale4fem

    Gather iui p your self respect and your dignity, and get the hell away from that controlling abusive asshole. You think because you "love" him someday it will get better ? IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE. DONT STAY FOR YOUR BENEFIT, YOU NEED TO GET AWAY FROM HIM FOR YOUR BENEFIT AND POSSIBLY YOUR LIFE. THERE are so many reality shows about controlling and abusive men that get arrested and go to prison because they think they can get away with domestic violence or murder. Unless you want to be a statistic. (I hate trying to say that word). Get online and watch episodes of Steve wilkes, guys think they can get away with that shit. Ssave yourself, pack your shit and run as fast as you can away from abuse and being controlled. Who place is it ? You live with him or him with you ? When they come over and start being assholes, then go to the middle of the room and tell them, be a big boy and pick up after yourself or else they will come there again because your life is not meant to clean up after them in your own house. If the guy you with now doesnt like it, tell him he can hit the fuckin bricks too and take their ass down the street to find someone that will give a fuck. He has not an ounce of respect for you. In fact he probably just using you for a place to live and someone for him to control. Get out today. Or call police if he beats you again. If hes in jail he cant do anything.

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  • 1WeirdGuy

    Racism!

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  • RoseIsabella

    I think you ought to leave this dude ASAP! I also think that you should put dating, sex, fetishism and BDSM on the back burner for now. I think you ought to start seeing a therapist, and attending Codependents Anonymous meetings. I also think you should research narcissistic abuse.

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  • 1WeirdGuy

    For the love of god use a period.

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  • Iambillythemenacetosociety

    Work on your grammar, then we'll talk.

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