What should i do about this secret person in my life
30 year old female just getting started out and learning about bdsm it's my fetish. I am submissive as fuck and like a dominant male to fuck the dog ass shit out of me and we'll I'm kind of already in relationship that my significant other dont know about. What should i do? Should i tell him or continue to hide it from him? I do love him it's just he really controlling and abusive and it's always about him and he lie and really don't love me and I guess already got some one else he be bringing over all the time around me and I'm tired of it there slick comments all the time about me like I don't know it and it's more than that to much to put and to little time I will explain later one on one in private if y'all have time to talk to me I really need to vent and then it's not fair cause they know what they doing and they not stupid like right now they know I have really bad anxiety but the dude that I'm with always wanna sit his big headed ass in my room and bring his childish ass loud ass disrespectful friends that like to trash the whole house and expect for me to clean it up after them every day like I explained in the post earlier. What should I do? I really want to leave and be with dude who he kicked out of his own house but I don't know how to and the funny part about things is we are not in love or nothing just met really good vibe and he help me and I help him we never done nothing and even tho we get accused by everybody we still manage to make it through the day he just a really good friend like what the fuck did I do to talk to deserve all this bs in my life God I hate my life and wish I never fucking existed.