What should i do about this very embarrassing moment?
This may come off as confusing, as I’m going to have to be around the bush about this. I’ll try to simplify it as best I can, but basically it’s this: when I was 13 I was deeply religious, but also superstitious and a bit paranoid. I kept worrying that all the things I liked were somehow going to send me to hell, and I had an episode that may be the most embarrassing moment of my life. I made a weird prayer and thought that God was saying something was evil, and in my head it was almost like having God himself tell you that you must quit your favorite hobby or you’ll go to hell. After working up the courage I talked to my mom about this, and we had a really cringey car ride conversation, and by the end of it I felt better. But this is where it gets even worse.
I made the fatal mistake of posting this online. Dear GOD was that a mistake. At the time I thought I was “spreading God’s word” or something stupid like that. Some commenters were surprisingly chill, some were insulting, but they helped me realize how absurd I was being. In the years since I’ve learned about things like cleared emotional blockages and synchronicity, which probably explains what was really happening than my belief that God was talking to me through a movie.
I’ve since deleted this question from yahoo answers, but I have referenced it twice on that site (luckily no one seemed to care). But it’s haunted me ever since. I’m an aspiring writer and even if my books only do a little well, I’ll still have at least SOMETHING of an impression on the public, and I just worry that somehow this embarrassing moment will be publicized and I’ll be a laughing stock for the rest of my life. At the same time, I feel dishonest for trying to hide it. I guess I can just say that I was a young kid who didn’t know very much, but thought he knew everything.