What should i do in this situation?

Hi there,

I’ve just been feeling like I’m always starting or initiating conversations with people, if I stop they stop. I’m often there for multiple people on a daily basis asking them if they are ok, how they are feeling or if they want to hang out. Which they always turn me down or say they are busy doing other stuff which is understandable. I can’t help but feel extremely lonely at times, I only hang out with my cat and stay in bed feeling exhausted from everything. I’m starting to feel like I should given the same energy people give back to me… but whenever I’ve done this people ask me what’s up or if I’m in a mood. I’m just so tired, I feel like I’m constantly performing or entertaining individuals, whenever I show up depressed to places people assume that I’m uninterested or just not wanting to be in their presence. It’s come to a point where I don’t know what to do, like do I prioritise my feelings or just keep getting hurt by people who really don’t deserve my time. I don’t even think my boyfriend really likes me anymore as well, because he doesn’t really talk to me, or even remind me that he loves me. So I don’t even know anymore.. what shall I do?

Thank you for being understanding/participating in this discussion.