Why are people so hard to get along & wish me to be better?

It's hard to be attractive, but I learned to accept my morals and manliness & myself the way they are: it will never be socially acceptable, stop wasting your time. Just for doing something when and how I want it to be, which isn't a bad thing, and just for being a strong man even with gently closing the door, nobody is having a good time with it, just for using my brains people are euphemistic and insulting about it, when they should simply say "stop using your brains all your life", they non-stop attack my brain, occasionally saying "stop being such a dickhead all your life", war against being me and being identical, it's not a catastrophe, it's a shocking life, powerfully shocking, I just can't win, can't be neurotypical and can't force people to relax. Everyone's having a go at me for everything I do and still it was never corrected, I'm not changing for anyone, my virility is my persistence in optimal physical being, my possessions, money, luxury, power, sex, fame, clothes etc is my persistence in optimal material being, my dropping of religion is my optimal spiritual being and my smartness, genius, sageness and persistence even if you hate me, not trying to please you, torturing you in staying the same, consistent and authentic forever despite hatred and scaring people, is my persistence in optimal mental being, I'm a perfectionist and it's reality and you don't like it, suck it.