Why do i want to die young and is it normal?

Ever since I was thirteen I've had the feeling that I'm going to die young. By young I mean before the age of 25, and the more I think about the more I want to do it. I think about death all the time and it's often my own death. I have a fear of aging and I don't appear to be afraid of dying so this probably contributes to it; however these thoughts are getting in the was as my grades have been dropping because I don't see the point of life anymore if you're just going to die in the end, and then nothing you did while you were alive will matter.
My parents know that I'm not trying as hard at school, and they seem to think it's because I listen to heavy metal music for some reason. But I don't want to tell them why because they'll think I'm depressed and treat me differently.

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  • Holzman_67

    We all feel sometimes like it's all for nothing. Trust me we do. Everyone at some point has tried to weigh up meaning in this infinite universe, find some purpose to it all. I think the meaning of life is what you make it. What's important to you. Don't worry so much about your mortality, if you change your perspective it can actually be a beautiful thing.

    I think it's important to seek out inspiration. You can only really see inspiration in the world through positive eyes, being negative isn't going to get you anywhere. Without sounding like a crazy hippie, when is the last time you appreciated a tree, a breeze, a butterfly? There is beauty there and we could be the only beings in the entire universe that can recognize and feel it so don't waste it.

    People talk about immortality and while it would be nice to avoid the terrifying unknown that is death, I think with immortality you would become bored and things would lose even more meaning. How can you appreciate a day when you have infinite days to live? And watching those you grow to love and get to know die around you would be horrible. Appreciate mortality and appreciate life.

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  • OldChick

    It isn't the fear of aging,it's depression. See a shrink. Figure out what this really about. If it's trauma, wade through it -- even when it gets painful. It will pass. If it's chemical, take the drugs. I may take a few pass until you find the right one.

    I never believed to see 21. I'm 55. Life can suck. But when it's good, it's worth it.

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  • thr

    I think that whether things matter or not is a subjective thing. Thinking about the vastness of the universe can make human life seem unimportant, and thinking of life as something finite and miniscule within all of time can do the same.

    In the here and now, stuff matters to those involved. Instead of hinging a meaning of life on eternity, treasure the now and create or promote something that is good, even though this good thing will not last forever.
    Acknowledging death and the finite time spans of life and good things, is acknowledging things that are.

    Though I won't say that turning 25 is a good thing (it might be for some), I have seen people older than 25 who could be used as arguments for living longer.
    To me, it makes sense to do good in school if you think you'll be alive tomorrow. Live for moment, but let be a good thing to not compromise tomorrow.

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