Why i hate and dred my birthday
When I was younger I used to love my birthday, couldn't wait to start planning and send invitations out for my "special" day. I used to visit my dad on my birthday when I was around 13 and he didn't even no it was my birthday and never got me anything and I think it's effected the way I feel about my birthday. For the past 5/6 years I've absolutely dredded my birthday. I'm 27 in a couple of weeks and already starting to feel weird about it all. It's really strange because I love celebrating my friends and family's birthday and making a huge fuss over them and trying to make there day as memorable as possible I'm the one that does all the planning and gets people together. But the thought of other people catering for me on my birthday makes me feel a little bit sick I would rather sleep through it all and wake up when it's all over. It's affecting my relationship as my partner wants to buy me something special and do something nice for me but I just brush it off and say I don't want anything and I may just do something on my own. Am I being selfish? Is it really normal to be feeling like this?