Wouldnt mind to be born again iin?

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Facts first, at the age of nineteen ive had a decent time of my life thus far, but I jus feel like I never really had a chance to live a normal life since I was born with a slew of birth defects that though slight, caused a lot of social exclusion and ultimately filtered down to my flawed self image that still makes it difficult to build relationships as a young adult, as vain as this might sound, I really sometimes feel like I wouldn't mind another roll of the dice

It wouldn't be nearly so bad if it didn't feel like so many other people I know are living lives far superior to mine, with good looks, furfilling (SIC) relationships, and promising futures, it bugs me all the time, for instance just the other day I watched this great movie, MUDD about a kids coming of age in the rural American south, and I thought that even with his chaotic domestic situation, that kid has it a lot better than I had at his age. Long story short, I wanna turn back the clock, give the sircle of fate another shake, even if i'm born in apolitically unstable country, just walking up to a girl and not having to worry about how bad my face looks would be great for just ounce in my life, INN?

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago

    Your post unsettled me quite a bit. You start saying "ive had a decent time of my life", but end up saying you think you be happier "even if i'm born in apolitically unstable country". So you would rather take a chance that you would have died long before 19, than to have lived "a decent time of my life"?
    That's just plain nuts.
    Instead of bemoaning your fate, "a slew of birth defects that though slight", why not focus on the positives in your life and make the best of those?
    Perhaps you should emulate people like Stephen Hawking, who has made a decent life for himself with birth defects a bit more serious than "a slew of birth defects that though slight"?
    Reassessment time, don't you think?

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  • green_boogers
    10 years ago

    You will need better social skills to compensate for the birth defects. But not to worry, it can be done. Perhaps you could join a social group with other birth defect kids your age. You could be a helpful friend.

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  • VirgilManly
    10 years ago

    It's normal for anyone to go thru a time feeling like you do.
    If you look around you will always find someone who is more worse off than you. Then you find yourself grateful to not have their problems.
    When I think I'm having a bad day, I think about friends of mine who have died young. What would they give to have just one more bad day. Suddenly I feel a whole lot better.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    It does suck that some people are judgemental like that but I know not everyone is. there will be girls who will still be attracted to you, even if you have difficulty finding them.
    I had a girlfriend who has pretty severe facial scaring but she is still good looking. We broke up due to lifestyle differences but i was with her for 4 years and we still hang out and it seems everyday someone will ask her what happened to her, so I understand how frusterating it would be. I'm still not sure how she got scars, but it doesn't matter. It was something best left undiscussed but I bring it up because it relates to the situation. she uses this site too sometimes too so I hope she doesn't get upset for me mentioning it but I think she is a good example that someone can look different yet still be attractive.

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    • Berudagon
      9 years ago

      I think I know how she got her scars. Her father was a drinker, and a fiend. And one night, he went off crazier than usual. Mommy got the kitchen knife to defend herself. He didn't like that. Not. One. Bit.

      I think you know the rest.

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  • ygrowup
    10 years ago

    These thoughts are normal for most your age, even without your hardships. I know it's hard to believe, but there is someone out there special, just for you, seek them out and share your life experienced in the meantime with others that can learn from them. Good luck with your choices

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